Photography

Photography.

(wow. two posts in a week. Dont get your hopes up guys)

I've been doing this for about 2ish months now. To say I have been frustrated with it is an understatement. While i do love the art of photography, i love that i can capture things with a camera and they may or may not look good (depending on how shitty the shots are), but i dont really like the fact that what i'm learning in school limits creativity.

It's like they tell us "go out, be creative, do what you wanna do. you're young and free" but they have "but you have to make sure that when you take pictures of people at work half their faces must be seen and blah blah blah". I remember when the teacher told us to take photos of "the right place at the right time". I kinda got frustrated with that because i dont understand how you can force yourself to be in the "right place at the right time". So what? are we supposed to plan our timings such that we catch something that is completely extraordinary and like special? Kinda frustrates me.

ah well.

I guess it's kinda good. I mean like, nowadays i bring my camera wherever i go, i'm more attuned to minute details in everyday life that might go unseen by the naked eye. I've learnt to use the camera as an extension of my eye, and likewise, what i visualise. (also, i can now impress people with terms like "aperture" and "shallow depth of field" ;) bring on the photographer boys. )

But then again.

I've had some good photos, really nice ones. Ones that people think are really good. But i cant submit them because of the limit that there "has to be people inside the photo" and that "half the face must be seen" and that "where's the subject? i cant see the subject". And i get slightly jealous of people who are just naturally talented at taking photos and editing them flawlessly. Man, i really wish i could do that.

And i dont know why i torture myself by looking at really good photos and trying my best to make mediocre copies of their pictures, but it's oddly... satisfying? i think something's screwed with my brain HAHAH

Maybe i might continue photography after this sem ends, as a hobby. But knowing cameron (my camera), he'll need a new friend who can help me. Poor cameron's shutter is so slow, and yet so loud. But we'll see. I've used him to "spray and pray", something i've been told countless times NOT to do, but i stil do anyway. :S Also, turning off my camera. i dont do that very often, and cameron still runs out of battery when i dont use him. (according to jemjem, my battery gets "tired and needs sleep" oh jem. )

basically my relationship with the BA students.
(Syairah and Clyde. i love you guys. BOTH OF YOU. )

Jemjem.

I've realised i have a weird liking to photos that dont have much in them. Like not much visual element. For example, i think a photo with no depth of field can sometimes be really nice.. but it seems like not many people agree with me, do they? (Well, Mr siew obviously doesnt. )

I wonder what people think when they see a student just taking pictures of them just going about their daily lives. Do they get weirded out? i know some get angry: i got told off by a french lady for a picture i hadn't even taken yet. But do others get hopeful? like do they get pleasantly surprised? that some teenage weirdo girl has taken to taking pictures of them for her assignment? Maybe i'm putting too much thought into this.

I'll be picking my top 10 pictures soon, when i can get my pictures into hazel grace (my laptop) first. The poor thing's SD card reader isnt working, i need to get her fixed :( im sorry i havent been taking good care of you, baby. :(

We'll see if his perception of photography is the same as mine, and if not, i guess i'll have to conform to it for a while just for my GPA. but i hope that doesnt take away the fun in photography ( and naming pictures "fishy business" ;) )

not me, but yeah.
(give them rim lighting. bitches love rim lighting)

somewhere trying to not drop the GPA-AYYY
-Audrey.